I am in such bad mood!

I continue to sit here in the afternoon to surf net lonely and wonder plus think a lot about finding new job. I have the feeling of worry and unpleasant mood. I seem to stand still although am trying to draw myself out of here. I dont know where I should go now, even I think to go to pagoda to run away from everything. I am afraid of something that I cant imagine exactly what it is. I will join one class tomorrow evening with my friend, simply that I want to learn the subject I used to like when I was university student. I am ashamed of myself in front of my friend, and I dont want to meet them but tmr I must show up. I cant be like this, longer and longer. I cant be a robot like this.